Sometimes I just want to scream at the world !

So this week has been rough emotionally. I don't know if it is the full moon or what. I feel more alone then ever. I feel like nobody wants to talk to me or hang out with me. I know im not very exciting to be around but I am always there for people it seems a lot more than they are for me. I fought to get a Saturday off to come out here to cda to specifically see a friend of mine, and It turns out she couldn't get her husband to watch her kid for me when they knew at the beginning of the week I was coming out here. I'm so mad I could scream. I just want to feel appreciated and wanted. and I feel like its not like I come out this way or can very often and when i can nobody ever calls and wants to get together or anything. I just feel like saying screw all of you and I want to retreat in my bubble of loneliness but I wont because im not like that or that kind of person. 

I have made the decision to not get so excited about things so easily because I'll only be let down. I have a huge heart and when it gets stomped on like this it makes me very depressed and sad. I don't want to do anything or see anyone I just want to work. and Come home. and play my sims games. Nobody bothers to ask me how Im doing or how my life is. I am always the first person to ask people how they are. and I'm not doing it anymore. Im not being the nice friend everyone has that just keeps getting walked all over. I'm done. This was the straw that broke my back and my heart. I know i probably seem way over dramatic right now but i have to get this off my chest or im going to go crazy thinking about it.